August 30th - You want me to do What?
My relationship with the United Church began 68 years ago on Sunday, September 2nd, my birthday. I had gone to the local United Church with my next door chum, whose sister tried vainly, to get me to go to the front of the Sunday School's Primary department ‘cause it was my birthday. The other kids were dropping pennies into a Birthday-Mission Jar while the whole department sang "Pennies Dropping," and Happy Birthday. That’s when I learned that counting out one's age with pennies, was a great honour which I avoided that day, ‘cause I didn’t have the requisite 7 cents and if you can believe it, I was too shy. It would have been a lot cheaper than today. My United Church beginning, took place at Knox Church, in Vancouver, where over the next 19 years I would receive my training for a vocation in Christian ministry.
During those formative years, the passage from Matthew's Gospel which we read today and its counter parts in Luke and Mark simultaneously encouraged and discouraged me. Having learned them in Sunday School as memory texts, they had become touch-stone passages; bench marks against which anyone might wish to hold up the issues of life – all those confusing and attractive temptations which our society and this wonderful world can offer. Before me lay all the opportunities of upper middle class North American society, with its adventure, glitter, the promises of security, comfort and success; remember this was the late fifties and early sixties. The beginning of the most affluent time in the world’s history.
"If anyone would follow after me, let them deny themselves, ¬– take up their cross and follow me. For those who would save their life shall lose it; and those who lose their life for my sake, will find it. For what advantage will it be to gain the whole world and forfeit one's life. Or what shall one give in return for one's life."
Now, I don't want you to think that I was about to fall into a life of riotous living and was saved by quoting scripture; nor do I want to suggest that my virtues and youthful righteousness spared me from the attraction of an affluent life-style, only that these words became a touch-stone for me; sort of a rock upon which my youthful self took refuge from time to time – a tangible symbol.
God's challenge to Moses to: "Go and set my people free," and the Gospel-suggestion to: "take up one's cross," might illicit the same response: "Who me? You want me to do what? you’ve got to be crazy!”
Comments on the Moses' passage and on the Jesus' passage, might help to place these texts within a particular context for our understanding of work and calling.
First, as we read the stories of Moses and the Exodus of Israel from Egypt, we need to remember that at the time of writing, almost 700 years have passed: Israel had long escaped the clutches of Pharaoh, had spent 40 years in the wilderness, defeated most of Canaan, seen the rise of the monarchy, the decline of Saul and the glories of David and Solomon, as well as the defeats of both the Northern and Southern kingdoms. While the written stories of the Exodus are based on a long standing oral tradition, they first appeared in this present form, while Israel was defeated and in exile, in Babylon. Whatever happened to Moses in the wilderness that day, we can never know for sure, except that it caused him to pick up his cross, or rather his staff, his challenge, his greatest fear and return to Egypt. The loudest "Who me?" while uttered in sincerity, permitted him to see, that there was none other for the job – he was the one. God was not crazy! Just desperate!
Second, it is quite unlikely that Jesus would have spoken about taking up his cross, but the first century Christian church would understand the willingness of Jesus to accept his sacrifice as such, and then speak of him in such a way. As followers then, they suggest that they and we should attempt to do the same – take up our cross, our challenge, our vocation, and our work. Whatever happened to Moses, he knew that God had impacted on his life and then remembered the place where that insight was gained as being a holy place, with holy ground. He felt and experienced God's presence there and from then on, that place, for him would always be a place of holiness.
How do you describe a feeling? What does it look like? How does it smell? sound? What does it mean? Moses described a burning bush that was not consumed. That doesn't make sense, but neither did God's call to Moses to become the Saviour of the Hebrew people make any sense; Moses the bumbling rich kid who had grown up in Pharaoh's palace, who had committed murder and become a herder of sheep and goats in the wilderness, elevated to deliverer-status! God’s really lost it!
Deitrich Bonhoeffer, pastor-theologian, critic and conscience of Germany's Third Reich denounced Hitler in 1933, which resulted in his being banned from Berlin and forbidden to teach at the Universities. At the outbreak of W.W. II, rather than remain safely in the United States, where he was on a lecture tour, he returned to his homeland, to oppose the Nazis. In 1943, he was arrested and held captive in Buchenwald prison and in 1945, he was hanged at Flossenberg by the Gestapo, a few weeks before liberation. Throughout his letters and papers which he wrote from prison, he upheld a view espoused by his mentor Martin Luther, that we are saved, not by any of our deeds nor by our financial achievements but by the grace of God. But just as quickly he would remind readers that this grace would be a costly grace. It certainly was for him. His faith cost him his life. "Whoever would come with me, must deny self, take up their cross and follow." If one is to follow Jesus and be like him, one ought not to retreat from the challenges and threats of one's daily life. Few disciples want to become liberators like Moses, or cross-carriers or martyrs like Jesus or Bonhoeffer. Seldom choose to walk a path of pain or suffering simply for the sake of pain or suffering. It is true that many have endured a witness of that sort, but few deliberately choose to suffer – not even Jesus. Cross carrying conjures up images of failure, unrelenting pain, and death. We might not like the idea of carry a cross and yet, it is at the core of the good news. Our friend Peter, who so quickly made a pronouncement of commitment, mouths our very words: "God forbid! This should never happen to you!" The questioning disbelief of Moses and Peter is usually our initial response as well. Our second response is often the denial of God's ability to do what has been promised. Remember Noah or at least that commedian’s, Noah. "I'm going to destroy the world; it's going to rain for 40 days, and you Noah are going to build a boat and take your family and a pair of every animal of the earth into that boat.... RIGHT!!!!!”
Refusal to accept can even be stronger than the surprise of Moses or the denial of Noah. Peter doesn't want to see Jesus his friend, at risk. Even if death wasn't an obvious conclusion, why force yourself onto an hostile audience, one that might get ugly? Peter rejects Jesus' commitment and offers cheap grace instead – avoid the call, the challenge, the cross; be safe, be comfortable and be successful – “Jesus, let's open up a centre of learning instead, a place of retreat, where inquirers can gather at your feet and listen to your inspiring stories.” "Get behind me, don't tempt me with an easy way out!" At the time of writing, the church knew perfectly well what had happened to Jesus and the disciples. Jesus and most , if not all the disciples had died. If we are called to follow Jesus, then like them, we may well be pitted against strong forces and obstacles and find ourselves at odds with a good portion of society, a society which might be seeking something other than grace-filled lives. Peter's denial is a denial of the reality of his own cross, the church's cross, our cross. Our desire to find the easy way out -- just as Moses' "Who? Me?" is our "WHO? ME?" Surely God intends better things for us than suffering and pain. Denial of comfort, pleasure, affluence and success might have been appropriate a way back then when men and women of faith really had something to die for! Maybe those who walked and talked with Jesus could accept such nonsense. They had so little to lose anyway – the dregs of society, the poor, the lame, the outcasts, the alien, the powerless – No! cross-bearing must have been for another time. But as we have already heard, Matthew writes for a church that is facing pressure; a church that like us might rather seek an easier road; one with less risk, more certainty. Like ourselves, they could either walk the road which led to the Jerusalems of society or walk other roads which would lead somewhere else. Hopefully, none of us feel called to become Messiahs, but by becoming disciples, responding to God's call, we shall find crosses in our pathway and probably will want to seek safer, more predictable routes and like Moses shall often shout, Who? Me? Surely, you don't mean me. You’ve got to be crazy! But, "what does it profit to gain the whole world and lose one's life; one's soul?” Winning is sometimes losing & losing is winning. A few years ago in El Slavador, 6 priests & a couple of lay women were murdered. Shortly after, an American nun in El Salvador was asked "Are you afraid?" "Of course," she replied. "Are you going home, then?" the reporter continued. "No," She answered, "the people still need us." We know of Bonhoeffer, and those who have risked everything in order to work toward that which they felt compelled to seek. Most do not seen their actions as righteous, holy nor religious, just feet nudged like Moses, like Israel, like the disciples to take up the challenge. "Who? Me? you want me?" God is calling each of us. We may not see a burning bush that is not consumed nor hear the haunting words of our Lord, but we are surrounded with the signs of God's presence which makes even this place, holy ground, a place of challenge to be about our Father's business and that is our work, our labour, our worship. At least that’s the way I see it!