Sunday, August 21st, 2022 – 11th Sunday after Pentecost
Philip’s Reflection: “For I am only a boy” (Jeremiah 1: 4-10)
Some of you may doubt this but, by all accounts, I was quite a difficult teenager. I
emerged from high school in England in the late 1960’s with some very modest
achievements in sports, and some middling academic grades, and woefully immature in
most other respects, and I have to confess that I went completely wild. I grew my hair
down to my shoulders, sported a big red beard, and my politics moved from neutral and
disinterested to radical activism and before long, as student president, I was leading
demonstrations up and down the high streets of our university town against the
Government of Margaret Thatcher – Maggie, Maggie, Maggie, out, out, out, we shouted.
And so my concerned and beloved father sent me off to a vocational psychologist – in
the days well before Myers-Briggs and the Enneagram, and Emotional IQ etc. – to
receive an assessment of whether his radical son was in any way employable and, over
two days, I was subjected to a battery of intelligence and aptitude tests and interviews
with psychologists and the like and a few weeks later, in the days before email and pdf
files, an ominous brown envelope addressed to my father arrived at our home; we had
all been waiting for it and we all knew it was. And I waited anxiously for my dad to read
the report and when he finally emerged from his den and solemnly handed me the
report, I turned quickly to the executive summary – Philip – it said,
• enjoys working with people and animals
• Philip thinks for himself, and likes to march to his own drum
• Philip has some modest organizational and leadership skills
• And, finally, Philip is likely to work better in a musical environment –
And, based on the rather primitive computer analysis of those days, the psychologist
recommended that Philip should apply to become a ring master in a circus! And it was
then that my dad and I whooped with laughter and we became best friends ever since.
Could the psychologist have been more wrong I wonder – and what about the animals
and the circus....
In his wonderful little book, “Let Your Life Speak”, Parker Palmer writes:
“Vocation does not come from a voice 'out there' calling me to become something I am
not. It comes from a voice 'in here' calling me to be the person I was born to be, to fulfill
the original selfhood given me at birth by God.”
And it was this voice, this voice “in here”, that I believe Jeremiah heard as a young man
– we don’t know how he heard “the word of the Lord” but he heard it saying to him
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated
you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” (Jer. 1: 5). Before you were even born,
says God, I knew you and loved you, and I called you by name to do my work in the
world. And, like Jeremiah, if we had heard this voice, and heard these words, we too
would surely have hesitated, as Jeremiah did – Lord God, it can’t be me, I’m only a boy,
I don’t even know how to speak! And we might recognize in Jeremiah’s protests, the
same feeling of utter inadequacy that the young Moses expressed when he too heard
that inner voice - “O my Lord, [says Moses] I have never been eloquent, neither in the
past nor even now that you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and
slow of tongue... O my Lord, [Moses says] please send someone else.” (Exodus 4:10,
14).
God tells Moses not to be afraid because “I will be with your mouth... and will teach you
what you shall do.” (Ex. 4:15) and God now speaks in similar terms to Jeremiah ““Do
not say, ‘I am only a boy,’ for you shall go to all to whom I send you, and you shall
speak whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you to deliver
you, says the Lord...” (Jer. 1: 7-8) And the Lord reaches out and touches Jeremiah’s
mouth, and he gives him the words, gives him the courage to speak to nations, to speak
truth to power. Moses and Jeremiah are both initially hesitant – you might say
“reluctant” prophets – and they go on to become two of Israel’s greatest prophets of all
time. And that’s good news for the rest of us, isn’t it?
At different times in our lives, whether in adolescence, like Jeremiah, or often later, mid-
life perhaps, we all hear that inner voice calling us “to be the person [we] were born to
be” and, however hard we try to avoid or ignore it, to just “get on with things”, there
comes a time when the voice becomes so clear and so persistent that we just have to
slow down and pay attention, we have to listen. That voice can come to us at any time,
and in the most unlikely places – in my own case, I heard it as I listened to a community
member of First United Church in Vancouver’s DTES telling me her story. She was
someone living with homelessness and dealing with mental health issues, and like the
woman that Jesus healed on the Sabbath, she told me how her own life had changed
since she found Jesus. And as we parted she looked me in the eyes and said “Pastor
Philip, you know - it’s never too late to become the person God means you to be”, and I
swear that I saw the face of Christ in her and I heard more clearly than ever before the
voice of God calling me to go to a place where I never expected to go, in a role I would
rather not have to perform, at a time of life when, quite frankly, I had other plans.
And day by day, month by month, as we all can, we learn to let go, yes, to let go and let
God, to trust that what we are doing is indeed God’s will, and to follow where that voice
is leading, and we begin to hear God’s voice more confidently, not as a challenge, but
as an assurance, and we do not let ourselves be discouraged by the doubters or the
naysayers, particularly the voices in our own head that are telling us we must be crazy,
and we hear God saying, as God says to Jeremiah, “Do not be afraid of them, for I am
with you to deliver you... I shall put my words in your mouth”. It is a voice that calls us to
surrender, to surrender our lives to God, and to the service of God’s people. It’s the
voice of the one who knows and loves us even before we were born, and who now calls
us by name – even if, like Jeremiah, we do not consider ourselves worthy of God’s call.
And, to cut a long story short, it’s why I now wear this stiff white collar and this beautiful
stole, on a day as warm as it is today, as a sign that I have surrendered, and I have
responded to God, for as long or as short a time as God calls me to this role; not as a
ringmaster, but as a servant, a friend, and follower of the one we call Jesus, our Lord
and Saviour. Jesus, who heals the sick, feeds the hungry and cares for the weakest
among us, even on the Sabbath. We may never feel able, as Jeremiah was
commissioned to do, to “pluck up and pull down, to destroy and overthrow” – but,
together, we can surely make a start at “building up and planting” the kingdom of God,
through the beloved community, here in West Vancouver.
our own ways with all the
gifts God has given us, we can surely show the world that it is indeed never too late to
be the people God means us to become, or to become the community that God means
us to be. “Do not be afraid, says the Lord... for I am with you to deliver you” – and so
we now respond in song “Nothing can trouble, nothing can frighten. Those who seek
God shall never go wanting, for God alone fills us.” May God fill you with strength and
many blessings for the journey that lies ahead.
Amen.