Sunday, September 4th, 2022 – Labour Day Sunday
Philip’s Reflection: “Fearfully and Wonderfully Made” (Psalm 139:14)
Some of my favourite Scripture is to be found in the Book of Psalms and most Sundays
we’ll read one of the Psalms and often, as we did this morning, a Psalm will form the
basis of our Call to Worship – just as it did in the synagogues of Israel for hundreds of
years before Jesus – and as it’s still done today. I like to think of the psalms as the
prayers that Jesus prayed and as we read them, we listen for his voice, knowing that
Jesus prayed the same words of joy or thanksgiving or lament as we read now.
One of our most loved psalms is Psalm 139, that we read from this morning with a sung
refrain – “God, you have searched me, you know me through and through.” (VU 861).
And I’d like to share a story with you about how this Psalm changed someone’s life.
And I’ll first ask you to use your imagination and come with me to Vancouver’s DTES, in
fact to the little chapel that was just inside and to the left of the main entrance of First
United Church, which for over 100 years has been an inner-city mission serving the
poor and those living with homelessness in Canada’s poorest postal district. The old
and dilapidated building that was First United has recently been decommissioned and is
being demolished to make way for a newer purpose-built facility – and we’ll tell you
more about that in the weeks ahead.
I served my field education among the staff and transient members of the First United
community and sometimes on a Wednesday morning I would lead the “Spirit Circle”, a
drop-in time for prayers and fellowship held at 9.30 a.m. in the chapel, for all who
wanted to step out of the daily grind of finding food or shelter and step into a safe
space, where you were listened to and treated with respect. This Wednesday morning,
a cold and wet morning in November, I gathered with five community members in the
Chapel - the chairs are arranged in a circle and the only rules are that we listen
respectfully and allow the conversation to go where the Spirit takes us. We pour some
hot coffee and light a candle on a small table in the centre of the circle, and we start
with a check in time as we go slowly around the circle self-introducing if we wish. This
week’s question for our check in time was “what brought you joy this week?” and there
wasn’t much to say. There was a longer and more animated discussion on “what has
caused you special concern this week?” – conditions on the street, a shooting,
contaminated street drugs, harassment, a fire at a local shelter, a friend lost though
overdose – sadly, still an all too common occurrence these days (as the message on
the back of the Bulletin today reminds us) – with over 10,000 loved ones lost to
overdoses in B.C. since the PHA declared this a public health emergency in 2016.
In the check-in time that morning the person sitting on my left didn’t say a word. Just
looked and listened. New to the group, they looked in their 50’s, but was probably no
more than 35, gaunt face, tousled greying hair, traces of a wispy beard, a long, heavy
dark coat, wet through, broad shoulders, strong hands, had slept on the street that
night, still shivering. And when it came to their turn in the circle to speak there was
some hesitation and then more silence and slowly at first, one word at a time, she
shared her story and as she found her voice, she loosened her coat to reveal woolen
stockings, a tattered skirt, a woman’s clothing. From a young age, she told us, she knew
she was born as a girl into a boy’s body. And throughout her young life, a violent and
alcoholic father had taunted and abused her for not being the son he wanted her to be,
had beaten her when he found her in girls’ clothing, and on her first day of school had
taken scissors and forcibly cropped her long hair. As a young teenager, she had run
away from home and, through foster parents and a succession of group homes, she
eventually found her way to Vancouver’s DTES and a life on the street.
The other members of the circle listened quietly to her story sensing that something
important was happening, witnessing, hearing someone tell their story perhaps for the
first time. No one interrupted her. No one judged her or commented. And in the silence
that followed, there were tears and then some hugs.
I had come that morning with some copies of Psalm 139 and to close our time together I
suggested we read the psalm, one or two verses at a time around the circle. Starting
with the community member on my right “O God, you have searched me and known
me, you know when I sit down and rise up” – and then the next – “You discern my path
and the places I rest, you are familiar with all my ways”, “Before a word is on my tongue,
you know it, O God, completely”, “You guard me from behind and before”, “Where can I
escape from your spirit...?”. And when we came to verse 13, it was her turn to read
these words – “It was you who formed my inward parts, you who fashioned me in my
mother’s womb.”
And it was then that we heard the voice of Jesus, and felt the unmistakable presence of
the Holy Spirit – and I invited her to continue reading – “I praise you, for I am fearfully
and wonderfully made.” And that was far as she could go before choking up and I
completed the verse for her - “Wondrous are your works, that I know very well...” and in
her tears, we saw the face of Christ – for someone whose life had been so dominated
by issues of body and physical appearance and gender and identity, she now heard
God speaking to her – it was I who formed your inward parts, who fashioned you in your
mother’s womb, you are mine and you are “fearfully and wonderfully made” and you are
my beloved. Her tears were tears of pure joy.
My message for you this Labour Day weekend, however busy you are, is to try and find
time each week to read from the wisdom of the Psalms; and when you hear the voice of
God speaking to you, listen carefully, for as on that cold and wet November morning at
First United, you may also hear God telling you that you are “fearfully and wonderfully
made”, reverently, wondrously, uniquely and intimately made by God, the God who
fashioned you in your mother’s womb, the God who searched you and knows you as a
beloved child – the same God who sent Jesus – the God who “if I lie down in the grave,
you are even there”. Whenever I read the psalms, I hear God’s voice speaking to me
more clearly and personally than at other times; and so I believe will you - and as you
read the same psalms that Jesus prayed, may you too “taste and see the goodness of
the Lord” (Ps. 34), as the choir sings for us now –
Amen.